The F word…Fear
Recently, i’ve found that fear is not what I thought it was.
It has so many other faces than the poster mask its given. I am familiar with may types of fear…as is everyone else.
Some being easy to detect…like a hydrophobic trembling at the edge of the pool, or a mother looking at her son doing 95 on a road on a speedbike while its snowing driving into oncoming traffic on the 4 oklock news (ha ha).
Its the other less noticable fears or less experienced fears that really open your eyes.
Insecurity…usually driven by fear… lies within all of us (to my belief) yet we rarely (depending on the level of insecurity) recognize that something is there…its the kind of fear that lies in the back of your mind…that you cant exactly diagnose…but you know its something that keeps you up somtimes. You know that sometimes you could hate so passionately…yet you could be oblivious to the fact that it may be driven by a kind of fear (Im seriously not trying to sound like Jim Cunningham…good job to D.Darko fans who caught that=)
Even with a fear like youve never experienced a good may arise. Love can cause fear (this opposing the Jim Cunningham BULLCRAP) and fear can cause or strengthen love. In the confusing maze of our minds, I believe, that one of the peices of the map through understanding ourselves, and one of the easiest to read would be fear, but it still confuses the hell outta me somtimes.
I feel that fear is greatly misunderstood ….as if it were something bad…it can be bad….yet it can be good as well.
I guess to conclude this friggen essay from a 16 yo kid, I could say that personally fear plays a large role in my quest to figure myself out….fear can bring to the surface feelings from your heart that your mind cant decipher…therefore teaching me that your heart…and your mind may usually work together…they are completely different. I can say that fear can cause emotions (something I was begining to become completely detached from) to surface that is out of my minds league…To me fear is something that reminds me that the heart can overflow with passion…so much that the heart can be understood much more clearly by the mind.
Idk i just was thinking about it….felt and thought something…and wanted to say it
